Seasons

          The season is changing. Flowers are blooming, I can't seem to keep my car clean from the pollen, and my boots and jackets are still on standby. I change my clothes everyday, my mind every five seconds, and my nail polish every week.  These changes don't seem to bother us.  So why is it that for most of us, when our lives change drastically, we pretend like we can't bear it. We act like we don't deal with change everyday.  Here's why: most CHANGE is UNCOMFORTABLE .  Just think about it. Most of us rely on stability.  I took an in-depth personality test and one section was devoted to expose my negative behaviors. "When dealing with sudden change, Bianca tends to become irritable and resistant to rearranging familiar ways...she will try to rectify the situation immediately and feels threatened with shifting conditions" #BOOMMMM. Somebody called me out. This test READ me hunny! I took this test back in 2012 and sometimes refer back to it as a reminder of how I can improve my communication with others.

          In the last few weeks, I've been dealing with some major changes. I didn't realize how much it actually affected me until I got out of character.  I exploded. I've been trying to figure out why I was so angry. And it dawned on me that I was afraid of the unknown.  I have to start a new routine. I no longer have access to some of my old habits.  I'm no longer a part of the surroundings I was used to for some years.  A friend told me, "everything and every one has a season". As cliche as this is, it's true.  Change is inevitable. But what I've come to realize is that there's beauty in change.  Think about when a butterfly emerges from it's cocoon, a woman gives birth, and winter shifts into spring.  All of these are uncomfortable, even painful. But the end result outweighs those temporary feelings of anxiety, pressure, and fear.  Greater is always in the forecast.  My favorite song right now is by James Fortune. The lyrics say:

"Live through it
Grow through it
Get through it
You can make it if you just
Pray through it
Don't let this be the end for you.
So live through it."

Just know your greater is coming. Just when you're about to give up, a breakthrough will happen.  Live, grow, get, and pray through it. Embrace change. There's something beautiful waiting on the other side.



-grannyBee